It's interesting to know how to human mind works. Well, I wished that I knew... I've been pretty messed up this year. Falling sick, stressed and everything. I do my best in handling emotions so that it won't interfere in anything but it doesn't seem to work. You know how goths work right? They put on thick make up and dress in black laced stuff, looking so conservative. This is to just hide what they feel. I don't work that way. I'm more towards using my 'fake' emotions to cover over what I feel. I don't know why but I'm acting differently recently. I feel that I'm starting to have the bad habits that I used to have again. I've been quite harsh with my words lately and I'm sorry if I've hurt any of you. I really have to thank my friends for understanding what I am and I've been going through.
Friends can be split into 2 categories; good and bad. The good ones are usually those who stick with you through thin and thick. And well, of course, the bad ones are those who try to sabotage you. Some people change for the better, but unfortunately, some don't. Some are two-faced and some are not. Well, if we're all close friends, shouldn't we share our problems with one another and try to resolve them together? I've been confiding in a good friend of mine and he's also my 'gan-didi'. The only thing that I was upset about was that he used to confide in me his problems but now I feel that he's toying with me. He seeks for help from me and after I've done that, he doesn't care about my existence. Why is it that among close friends must there always be someone telling you, "hey, you don't know the whole story"? Why is there always some people keeping things from you when you've never betrayed their trust and always there to give a listening ear? Perhaps I don't belong there. Is it just me or am I too sensitive? But what I am really sure of is that there are people who think they are in higher authority and able to control the others. I'm disappointed in that, for sure.