Jackpot.
I literally told myself that I'll forget and forgive whatever you've done to me, the way you treated me. I said that I'll let it all go, put aside the past and move on and enjoy the trip in Malaysia. But why do you have to humiliate, hurt and despise me time and again? Why do you always have to make me cry each time I visit grandma? What have I done to you for you to treat me like this? No matter how you've hurt my pride, how you've humiliated me, how much you despise me, I've never retaliated but that doesn't mean that I'm easy to bully/abuse. You're so different from second aunt! At least she treats me with respect and the thing I love about her is that she treats me like her own daughter. As the saying goes, "Walls have ears". I know that I'm not a perfectionist and that I've flaws just like everyone else, which gives you a reason to gossip about my flaws. You got it jackpot this time. Your words hit straight into my heart, you've pierced it and it is bleeding profusely. You knock me down real hard this time.You complain that others do not treat you well, that's because you don't treat others the way you want to be treated! As simple as that. I'm not a robot, I've feelings too. I've always looked up to you as a great person since I was young because you've always treated my brother and I with care and concern. Now, I strongly believe that I was naive in the past. I've always attended to your needs, like babysitting your children while you're talking, making sure they drink sufficient amount of water and, here's the best part, being forced to listen to you gossiping about others, or rather, exaggerating things. I don't know if that's your flaw or your capability, that is to exaggerate things to the very extreme like in drama serials.
I honestly don't understand why you have to hurt me like this. No matter how I try put on a strong front, you'll still successfully make me sob, weep, cry silently and painfully. Just like how granite can crack a windscreen. No, I can't stay on like this forever. I'm going to stand up for myself from now on for the sake of righteousness, I'm not going to just stand aside and watch how you discriminate others. I cannot stand injustice. Does it really pain you not to hurt someone? I know I'm not your first target because you've spoke ill of my mum, dad, grandma, my aunts and my uncle. I've set my objectives right this time. I'm there to visit my grandmother and not to listen to you blabber. I'm really worried for your children. They mean so much to me that I've to start educating them in the right way and lead them through the right footsteps. Each time I'm asked to share my saddest moment in life, I'll cover up certain parts of the story in other for it not to sound so bad. This is the most I can do to save you the humiliation but each time I do so, you just make me feel as if I didn't want to be born. I take words from my elders very seriously (except when they joke). Your words weigh a ton. I'm really upset. I've never felt so bad till I came to learn about this. I'm utterly disappointed in you. No point holding grudges, so I'll let it go this time because I still love and respect you as my aunt.

Went for Christmas Carol on Monday at Dover Park Hospice! :) We are really fortunate not to be wheelchair bound or having to go through dialysis and so on. It's a very depressing place indeed as you can see the visitors of patients weep in silence.
Baking at XiuPing's house. We baked adorable cookies in a variety of shapes and sizes. The aroma filled the house. Met up with KM, Shaun and JJ. Had dinner and 'Christmas-Exchange' at Burger King in Orchard Ion. We set off for CCIS in Orchard near Wisma Atria. The decorations were beautiful, so were the lighting(s). The performance exceeded my expectations so it's really good, I would say. Though it started pouring halfway through, Cindy and KM brought their umbrellas (I left mine in my Crumpler bag... :( ) so the guys had one to themselves and the other 4 of us, Cindy, Desrie, KM and I shared an umbrella :) We are loyal and faithful supporters! :X Thank you KM for the Tigger, it's really cute!
Sec 1 Registration rehearsal and the actual thing which was held on Wednesday and Thursday (today). We went to Mandy's house for the preparation for the presentation on Wednesday. It's really fun and I believe that I understand her better now :) Really a busy day today. Had to arrive in school by 7AM to prepare and surprisingly, there were parents who arrived at 7.30AM with their child. My partner/senior was Joanne so this was how we divided our work, initially, Joanne was supposed to serve drinks while I'll do the 'Calendar Cards' and the distribution of folders. It was too much to cope so she had to do the 'Calendar Cards' and the drinks while I did the distribution of folders, explaining, find the (green) forms and booklist and entertain queries. That's a handful, but it was not bad, I realised I could multi-task. :X When the parents flooded in, it was really a challenge for us. It's 2 people to 3 teachers and a sea of parents. So I made my explanation short and sweet and the cycle repeated until the last group of people came. Phew. Hung out with FL, Faith, Alson (Soh) and En Chang :) It's like the first time.

That's the reason why I don't really like coffee.

Wednesday, 15/12/10

Jia Wen
 Yin Loong
 Yew Ming
One of the Koi from Fullerton Hotel.
 These Koi(s) are friendly!
 The miniature version of the Merlion.


I rushed out of the house all the way to Harbourfront station without lunch, thinking that my brother would be there on time. Instead, I had to wait for 15 minutes. Went to the Harbourfront Centre which was just opposite VivoCity.
The first thing they requested for was to see the Merlion. So it was quite a long walk to the Singapore River and we sort of walked the outskirts of it.
Will be seeing them again next week during Christmas. :)

Thursday, 16/12/10

 Lavie and Cathryn
 Lavie!
 Lavie and Hui Ying
 The play mat!
 Kathy and Lavie playing with this Lego.
 Lavie!
 Kathy (red) and Lavie (pink)

Met up with LLY, Xin Er and WZ yesterday :D
I miss her so much :(
Meeting them again next week!
We went to City Square Mall to shop.
Though I go there quite frequently, I still like it there cause it's not crowded like NEX. (Serangoon's new mall)
I didn't really expect to arrive Serangoon MRT Station so early so I went to NEX to walk awhile.
The products being sold are more for the working-class people. I can't wait for the theater in NEX! :D
Alright, getting back to the topic, there was this particular part of the day which was so funny that I will be  able to remember for the next few days. WZ asked us to buy Old Chang Kee just to get that $6 worth of watch.
It's just her luck that they didn't have size S for her.
Bought some snacks for my relatives who'll be coming on Wednesday.

We found a good place to sit and chat. We were like some aunties talking for about 2 hours. So many things to catch up... I miss LLY so much :(

This was what I saw which brought back my childhood memories:

(I made this effect using my handphone cause old pictures are suppose to look a little vintage right?)

My relatives will be dropping by Singapore by cruise tomorrow around 1PM. My brother will be taking a half-day leave to be their tour guide and I'll be tagging along cause my Mum wanted me to go.

I'll not be spending Christmas in Singapore this year cause I'll be going Malaysia. Will be leaving on the day Christmas arrives.

Do any of you want anything from Malaysia? Just leave it on my tagboard before Christmas Eve and I'll do my best to get it. Take it as a Christmas present from me.

I like 'Kiss The Rain' and 'River Flows In You' by Yiruma. He's a great pianist :)

Had fever, sore throat and flu yesterday :(
Both my dad and my brother said that I was running a high fever but I felt really cold.
Usually when I've fever, it comes together with headache. But not this time.
As compared to the other time I fell ill, I've the best appetite this time.
When I was walking down the staircase at home, everything around me was spinning.
I slept for 18 hours in total yesterday but still felt the same.
My eyeballs hurt a little now. I can't even look to the corner of my eyes nor look up.
It's better for me to close my eyes and sleep then :D

Ate two sausages and one egg for breakfast yesterday morning, fishball noodles for lunch and grapes and banana for dinner. :)
That's that. Going to sleep soon. The medication left me groggy...

Chan Kah Min ; My beloved piggy/BFF

The happiest day of my life with you was the day we went to your house to make our own sushi. Cause all I remembered was that you told me you wanted to experience both sides but in the end, you're still here with me. I know you're going to be in the same class as her next year, but that's alright, I'm cool with it. Perhaps it's a test to see if you're easily influenced. I'm prepared for the worst. If that's going to happen, we'll all be back to square one, always avoiding each other. Who knows what will ever happen? Though people always assume that they wouldn't do certain things, in the end, they still did. As a matter of fact, assurance won't work on me this time. Still, I'll be there to pick you up if you fall. That's how much I'd go for our friendship. You know I can't possibly say all these in front of you cause I'm already having goosebumps and recently, that's what is at the back of my mind.

Lim Geek Lan ; BFF

It's your turn! :) I have no idea why, but we always seem to be in the same boat so sharing things with you is always so much easier. Like you've always understood how I felt and the assurance you've given me which makes me feel rather secure. I think the best times we had together was when we were in Bintan. I believe you agree so too! I just realised that I've yet to show you the messages :( Sorry sorry sorry! It's the 8th year I've known you already :D Rejoice!

Sim Wan Zhen ; Strawberry!

HAHAHAHA. I bet you didn't think that I'd write this to you. :D Heeheee.. I think we're considered quite close already :) We're even going City Square Mall next Monday~! I've done the weirdest things with you that I've never done before. I can't really remember cause there's too many to recall. It's always fun having you around cause you'll always crack cold and silly jokes. Emphasize on cold. :X But it's so fun during NE workshop. Not that the workshop was extremely fun, just that we were the three musketeers :D It's not going to be fun without KM, GL, JiaNi and you next year :( Only 5 people from our class in F3-2 ; Justin, Shaun, Ivan, YJJ and me :( Eeeks. Can't imagine how it's going to be like. I literally feel like banging the wall. Unlike me, you still have GL! :C

Lee Jia Ni

There's no one to do the tagline with me in future :( No one to high with me anymore :( I'll miss you lots and lots and...LOTS.

Poh Keng Ling ; PKL

KL! :) Hee... You really helped me a lot through this year. Very gutsy and I admire you for that cause you'll usually pose a question on my behalf which equates to clearing my doubts so I really have to thank you loads for that. I believe you know I get super duper, ultra emotional at a certain point in life. A very significant person to me cause you'd hug me when I cry and go crazy with me when I'm hyper. So I wish you luck in your future endeavours :)

Uncle's Housewarming (Ex-Sims Drive Neighbour)

Honestly, I miss Uncle, Auntie, Wei Quan Kor Kor, Wei Ji Kor Kor and Ting Ting Jie Jie a lot. :(
Wei Quan Kor Kor says he still remembered he brought me down to the playground each time I cried. Hahaha. I feel that we're now strangely distant with each other... :(
Hope to visit them more often and at the same time can visit Simon! Hahahaha. Both of their blocks are just opposite one another. One 39A and the other 38C.

Simon's Housewarming

Though we're of different genders, we still make great friends! :) I hope that this friendship would last really long, or rather forever.

 Band Concert