I don't know why every time when someone asks what I'm stressed about, the first thing they mention is student council. To me, honestly, I feel that council doesn't adds on any stress at all. It's funny you know. People get really shocked when I actually told them that, but that's just being honest.
To be frank, my greatest obstacle is my academics. It feels really tough this year. Like when I used to be in the forth class, everything was at my pace, slow and steady. The environment there was not too bad under Ms Wong's control. Everything just fell in place nicely. I had a good Science teacher, English teacher, Maths teacher and so on. Everything except Home Econs. We had three replacements within half a year. Okay, getting off track. So in the second class, lessons were like thrice the speed, thrice the homework everyday. Sounds great, huh? ._.
I used to enjoy doing homework last year cause it was as easy as a piece of cake. But this year is really different, cross my heart. I'm still trying to adapt (I know I'm slow). Well, my equation for myself is:

Stressed + Shag = Sick, sick and sick

Shag is because of the numerous training for SYF every week. The instructors really drill us like there's no tomorrow. To sidetrack a little further, I've never continuously did my homework till 2AM everyday.

PS: I really missed how you made me think so deeply.

It's interesting to know how to human mind works. Well, I wished that I knew... I've been pretty messed up this year. Falling sick, stressed and everything. I do my best in handling emotions so that it won't interfere in anything but it doesn't seem to work. You know how goths work right? They put on thick make up and dress in black laced stuff, looking so conservative. This is to just hide what they feel. I don't work that way. I'm more towards using my 'fake' emotions to cover over what I feel. I don't know why but I'm acting differently recently. I feel that I'm starting to have the bad habits that I used to have again. I've been quite harsh with my words lately and I'm sorry if I've hurt any of you. I really have to thank my friends for understanding what I am and I've been going through.
Friends can be split into 2 categories; good and bad. The good ones are usually those who stick with you through thin and thick. And well, of course, the bad ones are those who try to sabotage you. Some people change for the better, but unfortunately, some don't. Some are two-faced and some are not. Well, if we're all close friends, shouldn't we share our problems with one another and try to resolve them together? I've been confiding in a good friend of mine and he's also my 'gan-didi'. The only thing that I was upset about was that he used to confide in me his problems but now I feel that he's toying with me. He seeks for help from me and after I've done that, he doesn't care about my existence. Why is it that among close friends must there always be someone telling you, "hey, you don't know the whole story"? Why is there always some people keeping things from you when you've never betrayed their trust and always there to give a listening ear? Perhaps I don't belong there. Is it just me or am I too sensitive? But what I am really sure of is that there are people who think they are in higher authority and able to control the others. I'm disappointed in that, for sure.