Jackpot.
I literally told myself that I'll forget and forgive whatever you've done to me, the way you treated me. I said that I'll let it all go, put aside the past and move on and enjoy the trip in Malaysia. But why do you have to humiliate, hurt and despise me time and again? Why do you always have to make me cry each time I visit grandma? What have I done to you for you to treat me like this? No matter how you've hurt my pride, how you've humiliated me, how much you despise me, I've never retaliated but that doesn't mean that I'm easy to bully/abuse. You're so different from second aunt! At least she treats me with respect and the thing I love about her is that she treats me like her own daughter. As the saying goes, "Walls have ears". I know that I'm not a perfectionist and that I've flaws just like everyone else, which gives you a reason to gossip about my flaws. You got it jackpot this time. Your words hit straight into my heart, you've pierced it and it is bleeding profusely. You knock me down real hard this time.You complain that others do not treat you well, that's because you don't treat others the way you want to be treated! As simple as that. I'm not a robot, I've feelings too. I've always looked up to you as a great person since I was young because you've always treated my brother and I with care and concern. Now, I strongly believe that I was naive in the past. I've always attended to your needs, like babysitting your children while you're talking, making sure they drink sufficient amount of water and, here's the best part, being forced to listen to you gossiping about others, or rather, exaggerating things. I don't know if that's your flaw or your capability, that is to exaggerate things to the very extreme like in drama serials.
I honestly don't understand why you have to hurt me like this. No matter how I try put on a strong front, you'll still successfully make me sob, weep, cry silently and painfully. Just like how granite can crack a windscreen. No, I can't stay on like this forever. I'm going to stand up for myself from now on for the sake of righteousness, I'm not going to just stand aside and watch how you discriminate others. I cannot stand injustice. Does it really pain you not to hurt someone? I know I'm not your first target because you've spoke ill of my mum, dad, grandma, my aunts and my uncle. I've set my objectives right this time. I'm there to visit my grandmother and not to listen to you blabber. I'm really worried for your children. They mean so much to me that I've to start educating them in the right way and lead them through the right footsteps. Each time I'm asked to share my saddest moment in life, I'll cover up certain parts of the story in other for it not to sound so bad. This is the most I can do to save you the humiliation but each time I do so, you just make me feel as if I didn't want to be born. I take words from my elders very seriously (except when they joke). Your words weigh a ton. I'm really upset. I've never felt so bad till I came to learn about this. I'm utterly disappointed in you. No point holding grudges, so I'll let it go this time because I still love and respect you as my aunt.